Nerina Pallot - Real Late Starter

"I woke up late today Actually I do that everyday Got no place to be seen Im not part of a scene ... But - Oh my God if I was somebody I'd be doing it all just fine..." I thought that my apathy wasn't a big problem, and that it would magically subside once I graduated, and no longer had to face the dread of deadlines for exams and assessments, but what I've found in 'the real world' is that it's not the appointments and specifics that get to you- If you KNOW you have to get something done by a certain time, no matter how much you procrastinate, there's always the knowledge that no matter what, it WILL get done by that date. With other, more open-ended goals it becomes a lot harder (at least for me) to make things happen. Having the goal of 'being a better friend' or 'getting a more suitable job' or 'doing more for society' are very hard to work towards. At the same time, I have this over-arching feeling that everything will be okay, which (while comforting) is s probably not all that healthy, because it lessens my drive to be proactive even more! I find it very difficult to shake the feeling that once I DO start to have things going my way, I'll suddenly become this super-organised and incredibly motivated person who will make the best possible use of his time. Can't hurt to hope, I guess... =]

25/04/12

"(Q.E.D. is short for “quod erat demonstrandum” which is Latin for “so suck on that, bitch.”)" -Zach Weiner (http://www.theweinerworks.com/?p=1280)

07/04/12

"Babies aren't the only sexually transmitted diseases =P"
-Random Facebooker

The Reindeer Section - Your Sweet Voice

"I won't be blamed
For someone else's mistakes..."


I've been thinking a lot about relationships (both platonic and romantic) lately.

Whatever happens, and however things end up, I think in the end, you can only ever know one side of the story- Your side. You can never know with certainty the reasons behind other people's actions, at best you can just see the outcome, and try and work backwards, but you can never be 100% postive about WHY someone did what they did.

For this reason, I think you shouldn't judge people on their actions, because from a subjective pov, it's kinda pointless... It might seem like a good idea to whine, bitch and moan about what someone else has done, but from a personal standpoint, that can only ever give you short-term gains. It seems so much more useful to be able to judge yourself, on your reaction to their actions. I think people don't like to introspect because on some level, we all know what pushes our buttons, and it's a lot more fun to pin the blame on something/someone external rather than ourselves, where the blame usually lies.

Also, it's so easy to let your friends push you away when they need you the most, but it takes a damn good friend to weather the storm that you hurl at them while you're down, and still pull through for them. Too often, I've let petty grievances or pride get in the way of being a good friend, and regretted it later on.

I guess that's the good thing about learning life lessons young- Hopefully, you can learn from them, and be a better person. I think I've done the 'learning' already... I just hope I can live up to what I know I should be doing with my actions...