Nerina Pallot - Real Late Starter

"I woke up late today Actually I do that everyday Got no place to be seen Im not part of a scene ... But - Oh my God if I was somebody I'd be doing it all just fine..." I thought that my apathy wasn't a big problem, and that it would magically subside once I graduated, and no longer had to face the dread of deadlines for exams and assessments, but what I've found in 'the real world' is that it's not the appointments and specifics that get to you- If you KNOW you have to get something done by a certain time, no matter how much you procrastinate, there's always the knowledge that no matter what, it WILL get done by that date. With other, more open-ended goals it becomes a lot harder (at least for me) to make things happen. Having the goal of 'being a better friend' or 'getting a more suitable job' or 'doing more for society' are very hard to work towards. At the same time, I have this over-arching feeling that everything will be okay, which (while comforting) is s probably not all that healthy, because it lessens my drive to be proactive even more! I find it very difficult to shake the feeling that once I DO start to have things going my way, I'll suddenly become this super-organised and incredibly motivated person who will make the best possible use of his time. Can't hurt to hope, I guess... =]